my baby Isi .

 Since the day he was born he's been thru so much. I wish I could of traded places with him so he wouldn't have to endure such pain. After his surgery the doctors said that there will be some delay in his speech due to the breathing tube that was in his throat after surgery, but he'll eventually be okay. He's actually been making more progress this past year in talking & communicating with us. When we went in for his 4 yr. check-up last month the Dr. evaluated him & she seen some fluid in his ears that haven't went away since his check-up in December. She was worried that he was losing his hearing, which freaked me out! I told her that I haven't noticed anything different about him & that he hasn't shown any signs of discomfort. She then added that he needs to go see a speech therapist, which upset me because I've asked her many times if she recommended we do that & she said, "No". I've even got other consultations from other physicians who said the same thing, he'll be okay! Now months later she wants to tell me he might be losing his hearing & he need speech therapy. I was so mad, I sat there in the office watching Isi play & thought to myself "WHY HIM"? It's a miracle that he's even alive, now with all this he'll have to go thru more testing & dr visits. My heart hurts for him because he's only a child who doesn't understand what's going on. One thing that just kills me is seeing my kids in pain. I know that I have to hold it together & be strong but its just not fair. He's been doing so good, I know he's more active & loud than other kids but that's his personality. As we left the dr's office & got into the car he seen me crying & asked worriedly, "Mom you okay? Give me big hug." I just gave him the biggest hug & told him everything will be okay. I love you son & no matter what or how long it takes I promise you that we will get thru it together. I've set up appointments for a specialist to see him to check his hearing. Praying that everything goes well with my baby, the last thing I want to see is him back in a hospital bed:( Mommy LOVES you ISI.