emotional.

For weeks ive pepared myself to teach the ysa sunday school class for the 1st time. sunday was the day and man did i choke. I read the chapters, studied the lesson & when I stood up there I went blank. fraaak! i completely forgot everything I prepared & found myself self reading out of the handbook like I didnt even study the lesson. i repeated myself so many times & didnt even get my points across.This past week has been sooo EMOTIONAL for me. My big sis feina & her family moved to Tonga:( we were going to drive up there to say good-bye but jr had to work & my sis had to leave earlier than planned,everything was so messed up. I tried sooo hard to pull myself together but i just couldnt stop thinking about my sister and her 7 kids. i miss their lil faces still cant believe they'll be so far away from us. i wanted my 1st time teaching our ysa to go smooth & instead it was a disaster. i know im capable of teaching & doing so much better, i dont want them to think i cant do this. On my way home i cried, not because it went bad but because i let my nerves get the best of me. ive always been a cry baby but after such an emotional week i was glad it was over. This week wont be any better since my sis kay is moving  to utah:( i knoe its part of life & everyone makes changes but its hard enough living away from my family:( uggh I need to get it together:/