Undecided.

Lately, I've been feeling like my boys were just growing up way to fast & that they were being more independent & Mommy's help wasn't needed..I knoe it's just me but man its bittersweet:( Joon & I have been talking about having another baby sometime this year but I don't knoe.. don't get me wrong I would love to have as many kids as this body can give..lol.. but thinking back to what we went thru w/ Isi, I'm hesitant to carry another bby to term than have him/her have some kind of birth defect. I know things happen for a reason & I wouldn't take anything back that has happend to us since his traumatic birth, for it really tested my Faith & gave us a big wake up call. I'm just scared; still undecided about it but I would really LOVE to have another baby:) Who knoes maybe I'll push my fears aside & think about my boys and how AWESOME it would be to add another blessing to our ETERNAL family! I know that no matter what happens we'll be well prepared for whatever the outcome is & knowing that that the Lord will always be there for guidance comforts me. I'll keep yall posted;)